I spent weeks making this decision, I went over it again and again.
Going through all the scenarios, putting my drama skills to good use and reenacting the situations.
There really was no easy escape, no sensible way out anyway.
I was positive I was making the right choice and it was going to work out fine. And more importantly lift a huge elephant sized weight off my shoulders.
It was the best option to keep everyone happy.
No more mimbling along, this is now time for change!!
I will be, for once in my life, grown up and face this head on.
Unfortunately it seems as always I may have completely and utterly Fucked things up. Again.
This was one situation I didn’t consider. The fact that I might Fuck it all up.
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