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Liquid Memories February 25, 2012

I came in from work the other day and literally collapsed on my bed from exhaustion

I caught the scent of my partners aftershave, it literally brought back a thousand memories, some good, amazing, funny, and some bad but all worth remembering.

I remembered things I hadn’t thought of in years.

Strange isn’t it that at the end of an exhausting day this surreal experience could happen and send my mind into an ever lasting spiral of thought.

It made me realise that I don’t stop to relax and take in the scents, lights, or colours around me.

 I notice it on my Nan who i love with every inch of my heart, It reminds me she will always put everyone before herself no matter how little she has, it is always too much.

I notice it on my Mum, It reminds me of the strength she has, how independent she is and how she taught me to survive.

I notice it on my closest friend, It reminds me of the smile she pushed out through the depression, she is my hero and will always remain a warrior in my eyes.

I notice it on other family and friends to, these are the people who have impacted my life and left their ever lasting print.

perfume is my liquid memory.


Hope February 5, 2012

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Love Recognizes no barriers. It jumps hurdles, leaps fences, penetrates walls to arrive at its destination full of hope.

Maya Angelou

It also causes pain, and breaks a dam worth of tears you never knew you had.

It causes smile lines and happy thoughts

It causes future planning and dreams.

It can make you feel as if you are the tallest there could ever be, like sunshine is the only light you know.

It can leave you like a deflated balloon within seconds and cause nothing but darkness and emptiness.

I miss the sunshine.


Time to breathe October 18, 2011

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I spent weeks making this decision, I went over it again and again.

Going through all the scenarios, putting my drama skills to good use and reenacting the situations.

There really was no easy escape, no sensible way out anyway.

I was positive I was making the right choice and it was going to work out fine. And more importantly lift a huge elephant sized weight off my shoulders.

It was the best option to keep everyone happy.

No more mimbling along, this is now time for change!!

I will be, for once in my life, grown up and face this head on.

Unfortunately it seems as always I may have completely and utterly Fucked things up. Again.

This was one situation I didn’t consider. The fact that I might Fuck it all up.